There are many things I have found interesting while not working/ recovering from my accident - One of the biggest things though, is sometimes I find myself busier than when I was employed.
Now that I'm feeling a bit better/more human, I have projects on the go, doctor's appointments, groceries, cleaning, walking my dog, exercise, physiotherapy, laundry, taking time for my friends... I mean... I have been lucky... I am doing things quite balanced these days... or well I try to...
Ok, I do have days where I do chat to my friends on msn/skype perhaps too long - while my breakfast dishes get piled into my dinner dishes, and my laundry stays in the dryer until the next day --- I am human after all.
One thing that has shocked me with my free time - is the lack of desire to finish my book. This seems like it would be the perfect time. What is stopping me? Why can't I bring myself to look at the damn thing? It really conjures up strong feelings inside of me. I look at the first draft, and just get almost angry when I think about sitting down to edit it.
I will take photographs, play with Adobe, have meetings regarding other projects, teach myself to play chess again, hell, even start new projects - but my book still sits out - taunting me.
I have kept it visible - and refuse to tuck it out of sight - again, I'm not sure why - I feel like there's a mini war going on inside my head about this damn book -
"Do it. No. Do it. NO! Why? I don't know. That's dumb. I know". *sigh*
Ever feel like you could compare your life to spinning plates?
Like... you get one going... then one falls off the pole... then you pick that one up, get it going, and another plate slows down...and you are just running back and forth, trying to get them all spinning... Madness.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
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if only we could just have two or three plates, i think we could manage. but noooooo, we have to break the world record with 1194 spinning plates at once!
ReplyDeleteI hear you on that one. I think there is a 'responsibility force field' on some things (which is clearly in our heads). It's like a roadblock preventing us from even STARTING a task. But I find that if I force myself into it, once I get started - I realize that it wasn't so hard after all.
It's a nice thought... i should probably force myself to do it.. you are right.
ReplyDeleteNot in August though... after shoe shopping... i can't imagine anything fun or upbeat coming from the creative side of my brain. o.0